Life tends to come at me some times and leave me feeling helpless and overwhelmed. I have had this happen a lot as my children get older. They make decisions that I don't agree with, even ones that hurt me deeply. All I can do is pray. My younger children are home with me, and that brings me a little peace. The older ones I have to leave in God's hands. That should bring me peace, but there are times when I fight the worry that they aren't ready for the world.
I have to purposely focus on what God has given me right now, not what is ending or going away. I have to push aside the fears and the feeling of loss and the hurts and accept that God works in His own time. It's not easy, especially when every fiber of my being wants to scream that things aren't right. Trust has always been difficult for me.
God has given me my younger children to focus on, train, and love. Letting go may not be easy for me, but I still have a lot to cling to. The rest of the process may take some time, but I have a calling to follow and lots of jobs to do in the meantime while I work through those difficult times.
I bought Laura and Megan's homeschool curriculum. Laura's is for next year. Megan will begin her preschool program as soon as it gets here. Keep Busy. Focus on God and the family I still have to care for. Focus on my own relationship with my Lord. Don't let the things that I am not dealing with well overtake me. That is all I can do.
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