The Roadblocks in the Journey

I have three doctor visits scheduled this week.  Two of them are for tests to discover what is going on in my body. I didn't expect or plan that, in my early forties, with three children still at home, I would find myself in fear.

Without God, these last couple of weeks, and the upcoming ones, would be unbearable.  

I've battled various health problems for a few years.  Doctors would run blood work, but little would come back to indicate the true nature of the problems.  A vitamin D deficiency was discovered a couple years ago.  Before that, I had my gall bladder removed after a nightmarish several months of attacks and waiting on insurance to kick in and cover the surgery. The constant migraines from the mold in our house was horrible. The inability to lose weight, despite exercise and diet changes, left me discouraged. 

This last year new things have emerged.  Aches and pains in my joints and muscles plague me.  Insomnia, that has been bad for years, has reached epic proportions.  Then, I developed an enlarged lymph node in my underarm area.

After a first round of tests, A thyroid disorder finally showed up in the bloodwork.  This is something I have suspected for years, especially with a strong family history of thyroid issues.  On Monday, I see my doctor for continuing treatment. 

However, that is not the end of the journey.  I have more tests that have been ordered for the enlarged lymph node.  It's all overwhelming and scary.  

But God has His reasons for me to walk this path.  The enlarged lymph node could be anything from an autoimmune disorder, besides the thyroid disorder, to cancer to something not so scary.  At this point, I don't know.  

It is easy to be full of faith when you are healthy and everyone is doing well.  It is much more difficult when you face an unknown future. I don't know my future, but I know my God.  He is loving and wise and in control.  He knows the journey ahead.  He knows the obstacles in my path.  He is my final destination, after all.

I love Him.  I praise Him.  I need Him.

As I go through the weeks ahead, please pray for His peace to fill me and His thoughts and words to be ever present in my mind.  My journey is in His hands.  I trust Him.