Growth and Pain

It is beautiful outside.  Spring is in full bloom.  My entire yard smells of the wonderful lilac bushes in and near my yard. 

Our Spring Break is officially over.  It seems as though I spent every day last week on the go.  While I wanted relaxing and stress free, things had to get done.  Doctor's appointments and errands seemed to fill each day with trips to here and there.  In this day and age in our nation, running errands is expensive just by the gas used alone.

I am doing my best to listen to God and His leading.  Things have been in a state of change for a year, and things are still changing.  I am preparing for my oldest daughter to move away in a month or so.   She is heading off to Bible College where she can focus on her ministry and music.  We are dealing with the trials and tribulations of my step-daughter, who is one of the bravest girls I know.  God is leading her in some very purposeful ways, preparing her for His plans. 

God is preparing all of us.  I have so MANY ideas in my head about blog posts, but when I sit down to write, they don't come to my fingers.  I was beginning to beat myself up over it when I realized that, when it is from God, it flows.  I may have a lot of ideas, but God has to be in the words or I shouldn't write them.  For some of those ideas, it just isn't time.  For others, God hasn't fully developed them in my mind.  And yet, the yearning to write is strong.

God has taught my husband and I so many lessons this past year.  These lessons have not been easy ones to learn.  The things we have endured and struggled to get through have forever changed many things in us.  Having God walk with us through things that we didn't know we would ever face has been uplifting, even though there were times we didn't feel His presence.   We know that our challenges are not done, that we still have more to learn, more to overcome.

I am taking things a day at a time at this point.  As much as I wish that there was an easy path before me, I know that there isn't.  As I travel my path, I look forward to sharing the lessons God teaches me.