Trusting God

It seems that whenever I think things are starting to go the way I want them to, something happens that totally messes up my plans. Finances have been rough for us for awhile. I often think that it was crazy to begin homeschooling when there isn't a lot of money to do things the way I want. However, I came to look at homeschooling my eight year old as obedience to God. He'll have to help with the details.
I really know that to be true now. My husband's hours are up and down. Our bills feel like they are escalating like crazy, even though we've cut back on everything. It is times like this when I know I can't do anything to fix or change things. We are totally dependent on God. The last several months have left us with only Him to lean on.
We live in a small rural community. Many businesses and factories have shut down or are shutting down. Several have moved to Mexico. There just aren't many jobs around here. While I am grateful that my husband has a job, his earnings have definitely been affected by the economy. The possibility of other income for my husband or even for me is slim. There just isn't much to choose from.
So, we are left praying and praising God through it all. I've not handled the stress from the finances very well. However, I realize that God is trying to teach me some very valuable lessons.
One of the lessons has hit me pretty hard. God is who he is no matter what my circumstances are. Am I going to praise and worship him when everything is falling apart? What about when my health takes a hit? What about when there is no money but lots of bills? What about when the only running vehicle breaks down...again. What about when the washer pump goes out? What about when one bill takes double out of the automatic bill pay and doesn't want to return it because you were behind anyway?
It's hard sometimes to feel that God is on your side when it feels like everything is falling apart. However, I have no choice. I have to stand on God's word. I have to trust that he is my God during everything. I heard it said recently that whether we see our cup as half empty or half full, God still holds the cup in the palm of his hand.
During this time of testing, with me wanting to give in to the temptation to worry and hold fear, I know that God wants the best for me and He loves me. He holds my cup in his hand.